Since the end of attachment, or maybe at the ending of attachment, I realised that I have started to change.
"The only thing that is constant is change." - Heraclitus
Change are good, but it can definitely be the opposite.
Some of the changes that I saw in me include a dropped in my motivational level and my sleeping cycle. I thought I was going on a slump phase because school term ended and graduation is approaching. I did not thought that it would get this worst.
It have also affect my social life. I am even more introvert now and I talk even lesser. Lesser than what Im used to. Usually, I dont talk a lot, but now, It is like I do not talk at all. Ii such an anti-social.
And now, I am even more aware of my mistakes and hatred had become part of my life. I feel like I did not learn from my mistake and I am dwelling over it. I just cannot get over the past. I am not living in the present. And I am definitely not preparing or expecting the future. I feel stupid.
Its March now but I think Im stuck in January.That is when it all started. I guess.
The problem could be the chronological situation that I faces recently. What I thought was my strength and source of happiness have turned for the worst, they are now my weaknesses.
PS. If you see a smile on my fake, most probably they are fake. :)
i love you,,
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