When all of us are growing up, our parents are the ones having a hard time sleeping at night because they are constantly worried about the family situation and our well beings.
But when they are growing old, we are the one worrying about their health and their well beings. We want them to live longer and create more happy memories together.
I constantly pray for their health and longevity, especially my mother who is not feeling well nowadays.
i love you,,
12:34 PM
The mixed feelings that you have when you heard the Maghrib azan. Happy that we have completed one month of fasting but sad that Ramadhan have left us. Every year, the conclusion is the same; I wish I could have done better.
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I was really sad reading the incodents that occured in the morning at Masjid Nabawi, Medina. The first thing thta came to me was regret because I still have not visit Prophet's the saw grave and mosque. Luckyare those people that manage to visit the magnificient place, one the few holiest place on Earth for the Muslims.
Subsequently, I wonder if I ever get to visit it one day. The increasing number of terrorism in the region may put a strain on the quota issued every year for Haj and Umrah pilgrimage. Tighten security may also means that not everyone is able to visit these places.
Thinking of what could happen in the near future bring tears to my eyes as I wonder of I ever get to visit it one day, before I die.
i love you,,
4:38 AM
Cant believe this.
After all these years, I still cannot forget about you. How am I supposed to find someone just you? You are perfect, inside out. I just cannot bring myself to ask you for anything and everything.
Oh God, I do not know what is your plan for me but I hope it is for the best since you are best planner. To ask you what I want for now, I feel that I am asking to much without considering your effort in planning my whole life. I find myself to be greedy. I also find myself to be pathetic and desperate. I really hope she is the one for me but if you actually have someone better, I really hope that I am willing to wait.
i love you,,
10:39 AM
Since the end of attachment, or maybe at the ending of attachment, I realised that I have started to change.
"The only thing that is constant is change." - Heraclitus
Change are good, but it can definitely be the opposite.
Some of the changes that I saw in me include a dropped in my motivational level and my sleeping cycle. I thought I was going on a slump phase because school term ended and graduation is approaching. I did not thought that it would get this worst.
It have also affect my social life. I am even more introvert now and I talk even lesser. Lesser than what Im used to. Usually, I dont talk a lot, but now, It is like I do not talk at all. Ii such an anti-social.
And now, I am even more aware of my mistakes and hatred had become part of my life. I feel like I did not learn from my mistake and I am dwelling over it. I just cannot get over the past. I am not living in the present. And I am definitely not preparing or expecting the future. I feel stupid.
Its March now but I think Im stuck in January.That is when it all started. I guess.
The problem could be the chronological situation that I faces recently. What I thought was my strength and source of happiness have turned for the worst, they are now my weaknesses.
PS. If you see a smile on my fake, most probably they are fake. :)
i love you,,
10:50 AM
To besties,
Thank you for being there for me through good times and bad. Hear my sorrows and happy moments and talk all crap. Hahas. You are indeed a great friend to have. :)
i love you,,
8:53 PM
Horoscope. Never believe in them.But something might just change the way i see it.
I will always read it for fun. But this time is different....
I have a situation/problem, so I confer a friend. Not long later, i read the horoscope. To my horror, it depicts exactly what i was going true. Word to word. Scary much!
p.s. I write a bit like essay "to my horror" LOL!
i love you,,
7:35 AM
I have never realize how fragile a life can be and how easily it can go. It difficult to really explain it but u will absolutely understand what i mean if u face it. Especially if its gone suddenly. :(
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11:33 PM
